Tigers and frogs Monday October 23, 2006, 7 comments

It has been hard to write lately.

I have this story, the one so many of you know. It’s about a boy, and a girl, and its almost finished. So close, in fact, I can taste it. One more entry. I’ve written it four times so far, and it still isn’t quite there. But don’t worry, it is coming. I have to put that story to rest.

I have another story – one about tigers and frogs, but I’m not ready to publish it yet. It’s a lot of the reason its been so hard to write anything else. It’s a good story – maybe the best story – full of powerful, deep, abiding and respectful love, triumph of care over distance and sunshine over darkness. I think its the most important story of my life. But I’m not quite ready for everyone else to read it.

I’ve begun to realize that like so many other authors, I find it easier to write from pain rather than contentedness. Like Hemmingway (and no, I don’t have the balls or the skill to dare to compare myself to his particular brand of Hennessy-soaked brilliance), I have always found it a far simpler task to write from a place of fear.

But I’m not in that place of fear any more. I am not in a perfect place, I have not achieved grace – maybe I never will, but I am not afraid any more. I do not fear uncertainty, though I tremble at the imposing, horizon-blotting figure it cuts. I will not let its lcy grip still my heart. I will push on with what I know in to be right and true.

I feel I must learn to write from a position of love. Many may scratch their head at the unusual counterpoint of love and fear, but it is not hate that is the polar opposite of love, but fear.

I don’t want to write from fear any more. I am not afraid any more. Love is sunshine, fear is darkness.

Sunshine has conquered darkness.


Comments

chris Monday October 23, 2006


I thought the Tigers were playing the Cardinals.
But a Tigers-Frogs series sounds like it would have more action.
~c

Lee Monday October 23, 2006


Dude, stop with the sap. “Sunshine has conquered darkness”? Give me a break. Guess you never heard: Show it, don’t say it.

bbd Monday October 23, 2006


there’s always shadow and light in transition…there’s no escaping some pain, but i trust you and love you adrian and wish you all the best in all the paths you choose…i’m saddened by some things and delighted by others…but that’s life, isn’t it

i toast you tonight, l’chayim and slainté!!

Adrian Tuesday October 24, 2006


Lee puts it succinctly as only a web-industry person can.

Dug Friday October 27, 2006


Sure, you can get anything you want in NYC, but the cost is always higher.

Dug Monday October 30, 2006


It takes a special kind of idiot to post a reply in the wrong thread.

I am that Idiot.

Adrian Monday October 30, 2006


Maybe it was subconsciously on purpose!

You are special, but no idiot. This blog’s only big enough for one idiot.

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