Do you have a list? I do.
It’s longer than my arm. Longer than both my arms. And its not double-spaced, either.
It’s a list of all the things I want to (or need to!) get done. It is an interesting list, which runs the gamut from something as involved (the sublime) as obtaining Slovenian citizenship to washing the boat (the ridiculous).
The list includes carpentry, it includes programming, it includes editing of the written word and learning of new songs and the sewing of sail bags.
I look at this list, and I think it cripples me. Then I realize I’m fooling myself, and really I’ve just been lazy. Not even lazy in a negative sense. I’ve just been idling – sitting still and watching the wheels go round and round.
Slowly (ever so slowly!) I’ve been easing the clutch out, letting it catch and giving myself a jolt of fuel to keep from stalling out. I’ve got some of the things on my list done lately, and moving on toward more tick-marks.
I’ve written about this before, but from the other side. From the idling side. It feels good to awaken and see the dawn, see the promise of a brand new day ahead of me.
It’s even nicer to not think “Oh god, not another one” as I face the sunrise.